Thursday, June 30, 2005

I got it.....

Well I managed to get my hostel room after a great episode of interesting events...I managed to block my room yesterday at 11 pm and all the formalities were over by 11 am today.Finally after intense 1 day struggle I came out of the red.Now I ve just started arranging my room and hope I do it all within tonight.
And looking forward into a wonderful academic year ahead,which starts tomorrow.

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

In extreme Disappointment...

Well today after a splendid vacation I came back to one of the greatest well renowned college campus(????????????????).I m referring to CEG Anna Univ campus!!!Well not much change after the appointment of new VC.
Today we gotta pay the fees for the coll and hostels.The day is not yet over.But I think this is the worst day I ve ever lived on this earth.The Pandora's box was opened wide enough.First of all the college fees counter comps crashed and there was helluva delay in fee payment(Not yet over!!),but that doesn't mind hostellites greatly coz we give the DD's to the DayScholar guys n they pay the fees.
It was a very bright morning today in chennai.Well the climate was horrible as the day went on and still is.And we had to pay the hostel fees.It was a kinda readmission procedure into the hostel.Well the people over there in the hostel office the great souls did a splendid fantabulous,exuberant.......(the adj may go on)sfgishfvoasjf.Yes the end result was that.The mismanagement in today's hostel office is well beyond to be explained using this whole of English literature.They just made to wait us under the torrid sun for nearly 5-6 hours for just issuing tokens for the procedure that may take place either today or tomorrow as per the timings in the shitty token.The Darwin's theory I thought was just a theory....but I saw that in live today.Only the fitter among the fittest waited amidst the stampede to collect the tokens.They d issue it for 5 min then a stop for 45 min.And people had to jump near the windows as a dog wld catch a piece of bone.......Then...it was about 3 o clock and I couldn't stand anymore,I went in with a used token and finally managed to finish half the procedures uptill now.The problem is that if I don't get my adm done today I ll have to go to a 2 per room kinda stuff.If everything goes as expected I ll end up getting single room.I ll have to go back at 9:30 pm today to formally complete the procedures of atleast blocking my room.God shd save me....
With overflowing frustrations
CK
PS:I was one of the few people who were the first to reach the hostel office and I pray for those weak people ,who din manage to get the tokens slotted for today,to get healthier and build their bodies strong so that atleast next year they may get their desired room n stuff...I still dont know how damn this college teaches quality management in production enggn stuff and mind u the two proffs in charge hailed from the same department(The associate warden and other selfless man who works for the college NCC(?!????!!!!!!??????!!!!!)

Sunday, June 26, 2005

Looking back ...........

Well the time is heading for the hills.It was an irrevocably memorable vacation for me,though it didn't go the way I wanted.Lots of learning.By learning I don't mean learning what is a PLL or a Digital Signal Processor , but learning a lot more :a lot serene,a lot worldly ::understanding various kinda people......

It is only on this vacation that I got a feel of a complete confidence on my potentials.I really donno whether I d be able to make it into my four year dream institute : WIMWI ( Gyaan : the toughest place in this world to get into) ,but my confidence levels have certainly sizzled up the ladder.Something inside my heart says that the same day exactly in two years of time, I d be in any one of the dorms of WIMWI !! No doubt it is a Brobdingnagian task but I believe that I m Hercules !!

I m sure I m gonna miss my dad n mom's love to a grrrreat extent after leaving Madurai.The confidence and love my parents have on me know no bounds.Atleast for this reason the ferocious tiger inside me pushes my back to run non stop for two strenuous academic years ahead. Yes,the two years ahead of me is not gonna be anything like that I enjoyed till now .It is gonna be really a 30' Lee for me.But I m sure I ll reduce my paunch !! .I m in a hunt for a good training institute for becoming a banddog . yes a large fierce dog that carries off the CAT !!

This morning I started packing my dresses and I felt my eyes getting a little moist.I m gonna miss my mom's tasty food and its gonna be the same shitty mess(ed) food from July 1st.,but life has to go on(cry !!)mmmm.

Looking back ,for the first time in my life I drove my car up hill the same day last week,those acclivitous roads of Kodaikanal weren't any tough to drive as I thought it d be . I ve been to the SWIZZ of India a coupla times before,but this was the first time I drove.While I drove in the frigid parts of Kodai,I felt its real salubrity . Man...I ve been to Shimla and Kulu Manali bfore.But the visit to this small place: I d never forget . Fine this was the case last week.The next week its gotto be DSP , Microprocessors , Control Systems , Communication engineering , Computer architecture , RF n so on.Hope learning those things too be like an 'icing Kodaikanal 'on the cake ( by icing I mean both sweet and chill ).
Signing off in melancholy
CK

Friday, June 24, 2005

Understanding the real ME..

In my previous post I said that I felt life so boring and uninteresting.This feeling of listlessness made me read articles on spirituality.( I ve done this bfore n doing this again to understand the real ME)I d like to share certain things which I read and boy-o-boy believe me I m feeling rejuvenated within minutes of reading those things.
The concept of Self realization is really recondite.I have been reading extensively on self realization and yet I m not convinced with the diverse views of different people.Let me summarize what I did grok.I underscore the word grok here coz it is not mere understanding but understanding by means of experience.

The most intriguing stuff is the answer we give for the question
"Who am I??"
This was the question that enlightened Ramana Maharishi.One may wonder what is so intriguing in answering this question.One might say "Well I m an investment banker tied up with MorganStanley" the other might say "Well I m a VLSI Design engineer tied up with Texas Instruments,Dallas".These answers answer the Q pertaining to ur bodily being on this earth.Well as all of us know our body is evanescent,but the real soul is amaranthine.No more dappling the above point a very common fact which even a 15 year old boy would know after reading his curriculum.But the immediate question that would come up in our mind is abt LAD or Life After Death.We would be crazy for sometime after reading poems in the curricula and after sometime the thought slowly vanishes.....

So when u say that u are happy,what does that mean.?
Having a well paid Rs 18 lpa job,Rs 50 lakh apartment ,a Rs10 lakh car,split ACs all over in our house,????
I don't think so.That doesn't amount to continuous happiness.The real question is,
"How can I practically achieve this desire, to enjoy life to its fullest potential all the time, continuously?"
It is said, that where there is a will there is a way. When the body, mind and soul create together, in harmony, there is no limit to what we can experience. Our inner Being is the key to that experience and our mind is the key to the first step towards that experience.

True joy is experienced only when all aspects of me ourselves are in harmony with the desires of my Soul, because it knows all and its wishes are the best for us. I call my Soul or Spirit, the real me, it is eternal or timeless. Or it could be called, God's representative within me.

It is really unfortunate that we identify ourselves very much with our body and mind but discard the real wishes of our soul ,the deepest and best desires ,often.

Lemme tell u this.I m going to a party,sometimes I might feel unhappy tho'people are really hospital and good.There is no objective reason for this.Here i would like to stress that it is our own THOUGHTS that control our mood and when I control my thoughts I control my moods. When I think happy thoughts I am happy.

What we do not realize is that it is possible to become a Master of our own thoughts and eventually of our own life. It is not possible to become a Master of all our faculties without getting our own thoughts under our own control first.
Apropos quoting Wally here.
He says
"There is a Law that is called the Law of Attraction. Like attracts Like. Thoughts attract thoughts of their own kind. Quantity of particular thoughts produces corresponding feelings, moods and things. Thoughts are things.

We are what we believe ourselves to be, in our innermost being. We are the authors of our own life, Masters in it and not the victims as we so often choose to think of ourselves. Have you not noticed that we behave according to who we believe we are, in our deepest level of our being?

Most of us unconsciously defining and redefining our answer to the question; "Who I am?" And live our life according to that definition. Our every act is an act of self-definition, an announcement and a demonstration of who we are."

Coming back the thing I ve learned after reading a lot is put here in simple terms .
let's say, you were to ask for directions from many people on how to get to some place or how to enjoy life. Some may give you the right directions, others thought they were giving you the right directions but were not, and others may have lied. Out of the right directions, one of them would probably be easier to follow.

Then you might ask, "How would I know which one is the right and the easiest? And how would I know if you are not deceived yourself?"

Don't believe in anything. Not even what you read here. Have your own experiences....

Some quotes
Wally comments on this beautiful question.Read it....

"What is the truth?

Would you not agree with me, that the ultimate truth is:

1. Nothing in my world is real, if I see it as an illusion.
2. The meaning of everything is the meaning I give it.
Don’t I decide what something means to me?
3. I am who I say I am, and my experience is what I say it is.
Is there a better way to re-create myself anew?"


"We are convinced more by the arguments,
that we ourselves have discovered,
than by those, that have been produce for us by others."
- Pascal

"You cannot teach a man anything.
You can only help him
to discover it within himself."
- Galileo

I think I have made my point little clear in this post.I donno how much people can understand this.But this is what I have understood.I donno whether I m completely right.......Think Think great .Dream Dream great and u will be so..

An Impressive article...

This is one article I read sometime back and it was a real goodie!!Let me reproduce it here.Madhu Trehan's reply was really fantabulous.Read it!!

An article was written by Madhu Trehan. She writes regularly for "Outlook" and in this she is replying to a letter by a reader. Both the letters are shown below.

Hi Madhu,
I have read your articles ever since I was a kid and you were at India Today. You have often come across as a balanced person not prone to Gandhi nonsense, until now. I live in a White Nation (the US) and have never felt like a second class citizen. Only a blind and a deaf person can compare the pride of a US citizen with the indignity of being an Indian. A US citizen trusts his government, knows his/her death will never go unpunished, while an Indian solider is there to die. Elite is a bad word in India because 95% of our country lives in abject poverty. Next time ask the waiter in Taj who served you the Rs 400 drink, how much he makes in a month. The Durban who opens the door for you, ask him how much he makes? I bet his monthly salary will be around your dinner bill. Shame on you and journalists like you who have failed India in the past with colored reporting and are doing so now. They should feel ashamed. Rather than calling Bush names, maybe we should hang our heads in shame on PM's like Vajpayee who is too old to walk, too much of a coward to protect his people. Maybe, just maybe, the day people like us (the English educated hence smarter) start feeling ashamed enough we will start making changes in India rather than just exploiting our servants and labor class. It anguishes me to read this national character articles. A nation that cannot feed its people (a la Orissa) has no character, a nation whose children move around naked (Mumbai) has no reason to feel proud, a nation whose elected reps call religious riots "opposite reaction" has no future.
Once again, shame on you and all of India. I am ashamed to be an Indian and shame on you for suggesting anything else.
Chet (Chaitanya)
Madhu Trehan's response was:
Hello Chet,
I will answer your letter point by point. Your name. You can be Chet or Jet, stay away from the sun, fake an American accent, but you will never be able to run away from Chaitanya. He will always be there even though you hate him today.
Gandhi, whom you hold in such contempt, despite all his controversial behavior, is largely responsible for the fact that there is no white boot on a part of your anatomy today. You live in a white nation but you are not white and never will be. You can fool yourself to believe that you are not treated as a second class citizen. You choose to forget the Dot Busters, the Sikh who was killed because he looked foreign, and rampant racism. How many times a week do you have to explain where you are from and spend your time EXPLAINING India to Americans? I cringe to think what you say to them about India. We do not need spokesman such as you. You will never be able to share a good desi joke with any of your new friends. If you can't laugh together; you cannot understand each other. You will always be an alien. Yes, we are economically poor compared to US but we do not have to suffer the highest rate of teenage pregnancies, kids coming into schools and killing students and teachers, the highest rate of suicide among college students, alienated parents and children, lonely old people dumped into old age homes, drugs being offered to eight year olds (as my daughter was when she was in the UN school in New York), serial marriages and divorces. The US had a president who was senile and deaf (Reagan), one who turned out
to be a serial sex offender (Clinton), and now you have one who didn't know the heads of state of major countries and ignored warnings of a terrorist attack months before it took place. The US is responsible for massacres in Vietnam, Cambodia, Iraq, Chile and the list goes on. The rest of the world does not view America with the rose-colored glasses you have been brainwashed by the US media to see through. And, how much does a waiter in Jean Georges restaurant in Trump International Hotel in New York make compared to the price of the drink he is serving? The labor class is exploited all over the world. You seem to very upset that I am pointing out we have a national character to be ashamed of and we
should do something about it. Your insistence that we stay ashamed and do nothing about it is perhaps to make it easier for you to live in a country where the only religion is to hang out at malls and accumulate consumer items you don't really need but have been dictated by advertising to buy to keep the US economy going.

It is not by accident that Americans are flocking to yoga and meditation classes to buy happiness. You have done well to leave a country you are ashamed of. Call yourself an American but sooner or later your disguise and American Halloween costume will frighten you enough to get rid of it. I love America's energy and have good friends there. New York is a center for an enormous outpouring of creativity and imaginative thinking. Every country has its own problems. It is for the people who belong there to take responsibility for change. If you are so far removed from India, ask yourself why you are so anguished with my article. Chaitanya is raising his head, Chet is in trouble.
Regards,
Madhu Trehan

Anniyan..

I watched the much hyped Anniyan today and believe me it never lived upto my expectations.Frenzz I m not captious,but I m scribbling this out of dejection,after helluva expectationsI did not feel the presence of Sujatha in this film.The dialogues were not anything great.Though the theme of the film is revolutionary,I don't think Shankar has really made this film to underscore the theme.

Vivek is good but the problem is that his jokes are no longer juicy.It is like colorful juicy mango that is ironically a bit sour .Sada impresses the audience with her charm.Acting is also not bad,better she has become after she flunked in her previous 3 films in the acting part of it.

Vikram 'the highbeam light of this film' also did nt perform quiet well.He can act situations were he has to exert himself like the one in which he continuously changes himself between ambi and anniyan in an encounter with prakashraj.But he sucks bigtime in simple scenes where he acts as ambi.He could'nt act as an iyyengar guy well in the initial part of the film.So on an overall assessment of Vikram I 'd say that he has merely acted in this film and never lives the character in the film.U can oppose me by telling that he really lived the vettiyan character in pitamagan but again that was not a realtime character one can see commonly.He can't act well as a common man.Madhavan in this aspect acts well,but he too fails in some special characters unlike Vikram who carves them well.This is where one can see a big difference between vikram and greats like Kamal.Kamal can live as an iyyengar or Virumandi or Stevenson or Iqbal.Believe me he can LIVE and not act merely. Vikram is not as multifaceted as Kamal.So I 'd say that comparing Kamal and Vikram is like comparing MIT Boston and MIT Chrompet(My Fellow AUeans do pardon me!!).The difference is unequivocally big and not anything subtle.U can very well see this by Vikram's role as Ambi.

Yeah,Vikram has acted well in this film,no denying this fact.But not upto the expectations of his class audience who expected some class act out of a national award winner.

Prakashraj is sailing the same boat.Yes,very much quotidian.As good as always he is.

Stunt was a real bomb in this film.Also the music of Harris is a real thaumaturgy.yes,a jayaraj stereotype..It was good when I heard it in the hostel and initial days of the release of the audio.But I felt the music really disgusting in the theatre today.I felt perhaps I was sick but again my thought was confirmed.I saw people moving out during songs,though not many,atleast a few.
Yaar i m not a 'filme techie' .But I felt the sequences at the end were a little desultory.So again I coud'nt find the Shankar touch in this aspect.I wld like to point a thing which people would'nt have noticed.In one scene Ambi prostrates before Nandhini's parents chanting some sanskrit verse.That was a partially correct one.This man quotes GarudaPuranam but fails in a simple sanskrit verse or a concept which every brahman is supposed to know.It is called Abhivadanam and it is done during prostrations(namaskaram in tamil).I think Sujatha is a brahmin but i m really flabbergasted that he did'nt properly write it..!!
According to me this film is a OK stuff n not nything great......
PS : Two real time ironies
1) Shankar has superfluously ( I dapple this word - superfluous here) spent in this film which I feel is totally waste of money.All his films nearly portray the importance of edifying the society
and helping the people.Instead of his superfluous spending he could help out needy people .

2)I spent 60 bucks for a 35 rupee balcony ticket,in the 6th or 7th day matinee of this film.I wonder whether Ambi would accede to doing this!!!!!(I wonder whether this is legal coz they gave me a printed 35 rupee ticket )

My First post

Frenzzz
This' my first post.Well I ve been reading blogs in blogspot.com for quite some time now.But I was lazy to blog myself.
I m in a kinda weird mood for the past one week.Yes..it is time for the coll to reopen..well really enjoyed this vacation.Now again the same old college life!!
Life in an engineering college is not as enthralling as I expected it to be.Life seems so boring....mmm and I resorted to blogging!!
Well there were lots of plans for me in this vacation.But things didn't go my way.Nobody is to be blamed for it but for me(cry!!!!).Yet another vacation on its verge of completion..mmmm..
I m seriously fed up with my life.I donno why.I studied very well, got into a top notch engg college,doing decently well in my coll too but something stops me from njoing coll life,as others do..something haunts me....I m seriously fed up with this materialistic world..I think I m going too philosophical.